Almost done

I am almost done typing my story. There are 24680 words so far , whether it is good news or bad news, that is for you to decide. But I do understand, after rereading my story, why some authors just can’t bear to read their own story. ( This refers to..um.. one person in particular…)
Well, the more I read, the worse it seems. So for the entire story, I just keep on crapping about whether the past could be changed. And the characters just kept wondering if they should kill an annoying guy who seriously talk too much. Oh the horror!
But there are interesting things. Like I found motifs, symbols and themes that I don’t even know existed. And musing about how some characters just spun out of my control.( and become more and more idiotic) And feeling sad that some characters died when it was my idea to kill them at the first place.
Here is a final note, when you really read between the lines (I mean that kind of reading that includes a microscope), Natasha actually likes Roland! So that was why RX kept on bugging me about letting them end up together.
Sad.